My father left a long time ago. He never came back. I miss the relationship we had, and I cried about it today..

My father left a long time ago. He's been hanging out in his room, I see him every day.

But my father never came back.

So I had one of those dreams that I met someone... you know the kind, where you wake up and you're really pissed off that it was a dream, and you don't want to wake up to the piece of shit properly labeled 'reality'? I felt so perfect right then, in fantasyland... it's a little depressing that I need my own fantasies to feel happy like that ( Read more... )

I feel like shit (tired) today and there's nothing to do.

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So I got some really good news today...
My dad passed a drug test, and a strength test. He's going back to work Thursday.
How crazy is that? I'm glad, I really am..

Also, I'm going to Steak and Shake with my friends Amber and Annie and Amber's mom and probably 1 or 2 or their friends.

Fun.

Some things about life suck right now.. some of my friends aren't doing well, and others are doing great. I don't think I'm going to Florida like I said I was going to.. and I'll probably be going to college in Monroe in the fall ( Read more... )

It never works out.
And I hate it.

I miss
MATERIAL.

In a day or two, I'll be going home from Matt's, which means my sleep schedule will be closer to "on-track" and I'll be able to make all those graduation parties. I think I already missed a few.

I dunno who knows, but I quit my job.
I'm not troubled by the thing from last update.
cya.

Sometimes I have no idea how to handle the way I feel. The only reason, though, I'm having crazy feelings is because I'm at Matt's and we have a crazy ass sleep schedule, and my mind flies all over the place when I'm tired.

Why's it hard for me to be normal, mentally?