i fall asleep in a fetal position, hugging my stomach every night. & i think i felt movement from the baby last night. pretty exciting. 
we threw a little party on friday. turned out really nice. there we're margaritas and special brownies. and i made chocolate cake with bananas. plenty of good live music. i got down on a drum for a while. overall a ( Read more... )

went to the peace march in downtown on sunday.  pretty fun.
my mom called me yesterday. she's never called me before. i was really stoned. and really excited to hear from her. she just called to check up on me and the pregnancy and stuff. we ended up talking for a long time. i didn't want to hang up. hhah. i miss my family so much. especially her ( Read more... )

fuck i miss you guys. 
soo bloody much!

hope your still thinkin' of me.
i'm thinkin' of you homie...

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fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck i need to burn one down.
it would make the pregnancy so much more enjoyable.
jacob is trying to make me feel guilty about it. that its not fair that the baby has no choice. which is why i'm not smoking it. but i don't see any harm in vaporizing. i've done some research and the only thing they can come up with against mary jane is ( Read more... )

so i've been having some ridiculous dreams lately. last night was by far the worst though. i suppose my first nightmare as a parent. trippy. in short, i felt the very cold reality of fearing sooooo badly for the saftey of your child...my child. i was essentially seeing and imagining all kinds of disaster, at every fucking corner i would turn. it ( Read more... )

pretty neat pretty neat. pretty good pretty good.
what went wrong is often misunderstood.
expecting change.
and finding it's all thats left in the bank.

i'm hungry but he expects a smile.
i'm weary but he wants to go out for a while.
i dream of lighting up fatty.
i dream.

last night was really fun. went to a show. saw some friends play and met a lot of cool people. the people here are wonderful. very creative intelligent funny and genuine people. i wish i could have brought LA with me. you guys would love it here sooooo much! you guys should seriously drop all your melancholy and drive up here and see for yourself. ( Read more... )

last day last day lasy day last day!
my last day at work. my co-workers gave me a $50 giftcard for borders. so i bought the new shins album the new of montreal album and the thom yorke eraser album and soft bulletin. all really really good. i think i out grew the soft bulletin though. i didn't like it as much as i remember. but the other three we're ( Read more... )

so quickly ( Read more... )

monday was fun. auction went well. and i was happy to see all my friends in my humble home. starting to look a little more empty. but that was the plan. all our fish died. froze to death. and the crab died shortly after selling it to sammy. hahaha. we gave him something else for it. but man its been cold here. my landlord has or should i say had ( Read more... )