shaking but not        nervous.
throat sore and swollen.
hard to eat.             can't      compete.
something has been stolen.

i hate being sick.

and a lousy poet.

all day long. 
i felt like. 
smashing my face through a cleeeeeeeeear glass wiiiindow.

i'm feeling better as far as illness goes. not that there aren't plenty of other things to worry my little mind. jacob almost got terminated at the gap, but they let him off the hook . but they didn't schedule him for the week. not that he was getting many hours ( Read more... )

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The bottle is empty.
                                     ENID
                         You know what my number one fantasy
                         used to be?
                                     SEYMOUR
                              (pause)
                         What?
                                     ENID
                         I used to think ( Read more... )

we read eachother's vibes so well.
he knew exactly what was wrong and changed it. the fact that he realizes his mistakes and corrects them on his own, and out of his own will, is more than enough. fuuuuck. he's so real.
i'm impressed.
again.

i've been hanging out with bea more often. i miss her. i miss doing everything with her. as long as we do some ( Read more... )

i watched to US vs John Lennon. again. i left pretty excited and inspired. and even a bit more in love. butttttttt. it doesn' t seem to take long to be reminded that people are stupid. that if they don't wipe each other off the face of the planet. then, the land they are fighting eachother for... will.
i wish people took the earth more seriously.

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so this old guy came into the office today to pay his gas bill. he seemed cheerful, was making jokes and all. guy seemed to be pretty well off. nice clothes. nice thick roll of mula in his back pocket. a little on the heavy side. kinda looked like buddha, even had huge ears and everything. didn't seem like he was in great pain due to his age or ( Read more... )

i hope everyone had a pleasant friday the 13th, october. i nearly died. not only was it incredibly creepy that i started my "monthly" that mo(u)rning. but it was also the most painful thing i have ever felt . so i smoked a little weed cause that usually helps anything. but nothing. drank a little, it seems to work for jacob. but also nothing. ( Read more... )

i think i'm developing a(n) (h)ear infection ( Read more... )

everyone is cool. everyone is different. so shut the fuck up.
i snuck into the detour show in downtown LA with jacob and his friend anthony. met up with angie and ylsa. drank and smoked til there was nothing left. saw of montreal, bloody brilliant. i liked them a lot. but i like them a whooooole lote more. the band dressed in drag and put on a great ( Read more... )