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You:

were never going to come tonight. And this is okay because
I expected it
and my dad is asleep on the couch
and I ought to sleep instead
rather than roll about with you towards
that bad place.

Today in my ancient European history class, my professor told us about the Egyptian calendar. They ran on a solar calendar, and it's where we got our own when Caesar thieved it during his conquering of Egypt ( Read more... )

I am trying not to kick myself for falling into the same old trap. I am tired. I am sad. More of this journey with this boy has been a struggle than than it has been healthy. This story is so old. Who wants to read it anymore ( Read more... )

I wrote this yesterday ( Read more... )

I was cleaning my room, so I wouldn't be coming home from my trip to a mess. I piled dresses and books in different stacks on my bed, threw a load of laundry in, tossed a bunch of half typed on papers and old tissues away. I avoided the most impossible area for as long as I could ( Read more... )

dear baby,

this still hurts
and rumbles
and breathes

and dear baby, dear -

how I wonder what you are.

oh God oh God, oh God

I miss you I miss you I miss you and having all of my insides full


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Chris, after the sweat and all the motion ( Read more... )

I just had my first session of meaningless sex.

I don't really know what's going on, at all. So now, I sleep. I'll think the things to think during some other set of hours.