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An ending to end with.
Dear everyone that knows me ( Read more... ) -
Note to self
If settling on integrity and lowering my standards is the only way I can be with someone then I choose the single life. I refuse to settle anymore. If honesty is an option and not a priority for you, keep searching. I'm not your girl. I am not a side-chick, a fill-the-void body, a better-than-nothing, last resort. I do not know what I want ( Read more... ) -
Dear Kaci - for future reference
well - I typed a bunch and poured my heart out only to have it all erased because the internet connection fucked up. _ suffice it to say this message is for yourself. Today you finally told someone how you feel. -
Never enough
It's funny how things end up circulating. I can't believe it has been so many years and I still feel the same. I feel more empowered in my position, the trouble is navigation. I've always known I was abused as a kid, but having it told to me, confirmed to me. It set me out on this weird journey to explore myself. I feel like every day I drift a ( Read more... ) -
Fuck you January.
January, or 2018, I don't know where to start. I feel very alone. and then - not alone enough. At this point I just would like to go a day without feeling anything. Every day I get more and more tired of putting up with the lack of respect from Nate. His top concern is and always has been himself. I think I went off for over an hour yesterday about ( Read more... ) -
Ironic
So I went to a whiskey society meeting with my neighbor and as we are leaving the bar THAT song comes on. This is getting ridiculous.
I finally got you off my mind and now here I am again. Will I ever be able to move on? I'd probably never tell you, honestly. -
March 9, 2002
Here I am...it's been a while again ( Read more... ) -
Do or do not there is no try.
I am so tired of trying ( Read more... ) -
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Fuck you, Mom. Fuck you. -
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I've become so tired of fighting. Everything. AND everyone, PARTICULARLY myself. Right now specifically--my family. There is no point in arguing with the lot of them. They are always right and somehow in the end I become the villain and them the victim. I realize SOMETIMES I manifest the issue, or antagonize, but even from external-third-person- ( Read more... )