if you get next to me and help me find simplicity
then you can be the one to take me, to break me, and flood my soul
grey clouds they infiltrate as every move you make gets me closer to clarity

i like him

and on a completely unrelated note
the good old deep empty . . .here in austin
always
at home

But the nights brought sparks
And the sparks brought flames
And you had to be sure
This wasn't one of those game
But I'm going to show you
If you could just give me tonight, tonight

Today is  a good day
There is simply nothing to do at the capitol except maybe answer phones while Real Girl is in a meeting with Dan and Jenni. Real Girl does have a name, ( Read more... )

do we only get one great heartbreak

that's what it said. i know what i was thinking and what i was planning on writing but i closed the laptop, probably smoked a cigarette, and took a walk around the neighborhood. That's what I do when i think there's far too much experience to condense into mere words and sentences. But somehow a cigarette and a ( Read more... )

final exams
and
packing everything into my civic by Wednesday
AND
finding a place to stay until the 31st

i'm starting to feel it a bit. not a lot. just a bit

currently i'm sitting outside Heavenly Grounds freezing my butt off and wishing I hadn't smoked that cigarette since I was convinced I was quitting yesterday. What's one more right? I'll quit when i get home and don't have friends to bum from ( Read more... )

Explore the cave that is my chest
The torch reveals there's nothing left
Your whispers echo off the walls
And you can hear my distant calls
The voice of who I used to be
Screaming out "someone, someone please
Please shine a light into the black
Wade through the depths and bring me back
The Little Flowers are having their Lord's Day outside my room ( Read more... )

hullo ( Read more... )

why is it you can still hurt me when, as ex-friends, you owe me nothing and i owe you nothing? When i already expect so little and i want even less, why does everything you do drive me up the wall ( Read more... )

this will not end well
but it sure is cute in the meantime

i am on my balcony with my history book in my lap and an open word document that needs words on it. homework, to be precise. I dont feel like doing it. I'm strangely unsatisfied today; nothing really worked out the way it was supposed to. See an old pal? nope. Get a new chair to write in? nope. Talk to aaran? nope ( Read more... )