I don't know what to believe ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of over-analyzing everything. lol...the mental picture seems pathetic. Of me sitting here fretting, him sitting there doing everything in his power to not be affected and yet still stressing out ( Read more... )

Disappointment doesn't feel like sadness or hurt. It's like a slap in the face. You're not good enough. And the more you wanted it, the worse it is. Disappointment makes you feel about two inches tall, so you can melt into the ground while the winner that accepts the prize that should have been yours steps forward with a smile ( Read more... )

I am so sick and tired of making to-do lists and never checking all the boxes ( Read more... )

I'm starting to understand that it's okay to be inspired by things like driving down to Sunol. It feels weird, being a city girl in awe of a little country town, I can't really describe it. All I know is that I should paint there, it would help a lot. I feel so at peace among the wilderness ( Read more... )

Joey left for Iraq last night. Steven is a good friend. I started another job at Hollister. I miss Matt more than anything.

Was Socrates an atheist?

I'm so sick of the same old thing, over and over. I'm tired of the same conversations. I'm completely sick of my friends that are stuck in their high school paths. I'm sick of people that still want to maintain acquaintance with me, when all we have in common is a high school history. I've become so much more. God has blessed me with so much growth ( Read more... )

I feel weird. It's very interesting, actually, to see how I have and will react to Matt being away in boot camp. He left last Sunday afternoon, and it's been a very slow week indeed that's now rolled around to Friday night. I feel eager for Sunday, to be able to think that the time is one-thirteenth over before his graduation ( Read more... )

Everyone has their petty insecurities. We're all equal. Stop dwelling on your pain, because honestly your shit is no worse off than anyone else's. Stand up and be strong ( Read more... )