Everyone is cutting up. I don't know why. Half of them aren't even depressed. It has just become a bad habit and something to do when they are bored. I don't want to deal with it anymore. I got over it. By myself. I had the help and support of a few people, or maybe like 2, but I had to decide for myself that I didn't need to do it. I think cutting ( Read more... )

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I seem to be making more friends than enemies lately. I can name off like 5 people who aren't speaking to me right now, all guys who were once good friends or boyfriends. The thing is, I don't even care. The only thing I'm worried about is that I'm a huge bitch and the people I do want to stick around will leave me. I don't think that's the case ( Read more... )

Happy fucking Halloween.

Ok. I don't have a lot to say. Tomorrow is Halloween and I'm home alone passing out candy to the little kids. WOOHOO! I'm allowed to have people over so that's cool, but everyone has plans and whatnot. Oh well. Stacey is coming over and that's plenty for me ( Read more... )

As much as I was positive that yesterday was going to suck, and with as bad as it started out, it ended up pretty damn good, or at least I think so. I realized a lot of things when I was talking on the phone to one of my friends. I've always been so upset when I feel like I'm digressing and making negative progress, but it is progress. Retracing ( Read more... )

Yea. I am the most selfish and self-centered person. And I don't think I even care anymore. I don't know how to fix this for everyone. Everything is falling apart and I plan on sitting back and watching it crumble before my eyes and anxiously awaiting the day the ground I'm standing on will crumble underneath me. I just don't care. Maybe someday I ( Read more... )

I think that things are finally starting to fall into place. Everything seems to be going smoothly and I haven't been able to say that for 4 months. I don't want to jinx myself here, but I really think that everything is starting to go my way for once and it feels pretty good. I guess I will just keep hoping that everything works out. And it's not ( Read more... )

Last night. Was good for something.

( This is me. )

Dear God,

Thank You.

Amen.