i jsut hate the fact that i cant find the words to make everything all better. i dont deserve her.

well..... tracy and i are back on track... again... lol were doing just fine for anyone who wants to know. tracy you have made this one of my most exciting years of my life... i jsut want you to know that im going to be here for you for the rest of your life and that i love you with all my heart. i love you so much babe that i never wanna fight ( Read more... )

well today wasnt at all what i had expected. i came home for a lil while and got to see alot of friends. it was nice. but tracy and i are still not to great. we still fight, not as bad but we do and its about stupid things. today i read these 2 poems she wrote for me a while ago and it makes me look back and realize that i dont treat her like she ( Read more... )

well it took a long time but tracy and i are finaly back to normal. our relationship is back at 100% and we have become so close to eachother. i admit it took a long time but shes well worth it. i know that i screwed up but im gad that everything is back to normal. this week has just been go great even tho alot of bad stuff happoned. like the other ( Read more... )

well today sucked only for one reason. we had to pay rent. $515 right down the tube. but other then that today has been great. tracy and i spent the entire day together but now we have to go to work. i think im going to go to gunby's after work until she gets home. i have been playing the NTN like i did at wild wings. its awsome. i finally found ( Read more... )

well tracy and i, i think, are starting to do better. were starting to talk alot more and were joking around again. im not worried about the whole deal that happoned last night because Tracy assured me theres nothing. i really feel that were starting to do alot better, and really i think thats the only way we can go. i think we hit rock bottem for ( Read more... )

"Brandon means the world to me and when you affect him in any way, you're gone!" this is a quoat from Tracy's jounral on april 5, 2005. now i think i would get lucky to hear somthing like that only to the fact that there is someone affecting me. i hate to admit it but love hurts. it really does. idk i guess love is sitting up at 11:37 crying to ( Read more... )

well so everyone knows this will be my last post because i feel that i shouldnt have to type in this to tell ppl how i feel i should be able to tell people how i feel. just a recap of everything thats happoned since i started this thing, i told erica how i felt about her... that backfired on me. next got a cell phone, lost power because of the ( Read more... )

well alot has happoned since i last wrote in here. i have finally committed to going to college and im just about ready to go. i got all kinds of new stuff like a cell phone and my dad gave me a car for college. all i have to do is sell mine. i have it for sale for only $500 so if anyone is interusted let me know. i find out if im eleagible for ( Read more... )

well we only have 23 days left for school and i cant freakin wait! its been such a long ass time since i wrote in here idk what alls happoned. well for starters my car broke down again but i got that fixed. oh yea and i also sold the bitch. im supposed to be buying a truck from this kid mike for $1100. i have to tell larry that i want $600 for my ( Read more... )