It's 6:18am and I'm awake in my quiet apartment on the first day of fall. I woke up, for no reason I could really discern, around 5am. I laid in bed and listened to a thunderstorm outside. It was pouring, complete with lightening and thunder. I got out of bed to close some windows and as I sat on my couch and looked outside, I saw the beginnings of ( Read more... )

Hay guys.

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Come home. Please. I miss you.

engaged yesterday, the 27th.

wish my mom was here to talk to about it. First major thing to happen to me, and she isnt here.
I'm feeling sick to my stomach just thinking about it.

Miss you mom. So fucking much.

September 8th, 2008 was the last time I hugged my mother when she could hug me back ( Read more... )

Miserable.
Never felt so alone in my life.
No one has time for me. It was my only day off for almost two weeks.
no one could bother.

its hot. nicks gone. my dads probably with his girlfriend. and i miss my mom.

So after almost 21 years of, "going with the flow," I am changing something drastically ( Read more... )

Friends Only


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mothers day came and went..don't want to talk about that now ( Read more... )