Some days I just don't know how to go on.

I miss my mom.

This has been a hard, hard week. Exactly a week ago,my mother died.  Everyone is amazed by how well I seem to be holding up, but I am dying inside. She is all I think about. My family and I lost her a long time ago, but I still try and remember when she was good. I was invited into the college honors program, and my first thought was to call my mom ( Read more... )

The wait is over.
In case I should ever forget,
September 10th 4am

It feels like a dream. Or a nightmare.

I know that it is now time to say goodbye to her, but I don't think I'm ready.

Fuck. I just want a day. A day with a healthy mom so I can have a real conversation with her, and go to lunch and show her my apartment...
I thought I'd be ready for this. It's been years leading up to this, and I'm so unprepared.

It's just the waiting game.

Crappy summer.
I work and go to school every single day.
My next day off though, nick and i are going to fall river to the beach.
I feel like people don't like me anymore.

I'm sick of being the one that is constantly asking other people to hang out. For once I wish someone would want to hang out with me.
They never have time for me, but they have time ( Read more... )

Nick and I are going to Montreal overnight.
We are staying at a gorgeous/fancy hotel in the older part of the city.

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This summer got off to a fast start, but is already slowing down ( Read more... )

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For the past year you have been considered an “Intended Nursing Major”. Based upon your successful completion of all perquisite science courses, you status will be changed to “Nursing Major”. You have worked hard to accomplish good grades and we wish you the best as you continue into nursing courses in the fall.

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I want it to be the summer so badly.
I want nick living with me.
I want warm weather and the beach and the red sox and cooking out on my porch.
I want to sit outside late on summer nights and talk to friends and...

everything just feels different and more romantic in the summer. Like even the most boring task seems better.

But,
Right now I just want it ( Read more... )