Mark,

I'm sure this feels like it comes a bit out of nowhere - it's not my intention to 'blindside' you, so if it's thrown you like that, I'm sorry.
I'm working really hard on my well-being and mental health and part of that is the healing I've needed to do from our split last year. I need to be able to move on and put it behind me. That's why I'm ( Read more... )

to each + everyone of you (relationships, 'seeing's, 'fucking's, one night stands, dates, 'flirt's ( Read more... )

i dont know what to say except that i need to make some form of communication about what's going on ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do with myself. i feel like my insides are crying but im not. it hurts n i have no idea what to do to make it better/to make myself more productive right now. i dont feel like i care anymore. about the course n things, altho its so important to me i feel like im failing myself feeling like this. feeling like i dont want that ( Read more... )

well ive just trolled thru my skills dvd's for my course. fuckin hell. i mean, how have i managed not to improve, even a little. i feel in a way that ive actually gotten worse. ive gotten interpretative, thinking too much. thinking too much for either me, or the client + hence leading them down a thinking path ( Read more... )

all hard.
an allround brilliant few days, so long as i can ignore all the stuff goin on in the background. all background.
so much.
no words.

x

everytime.
i dont know whether i could say i enjoy it. all i know is that i come away with something heavy. a feeling. a stone in my lungs, making it hard to breathe.

its easier after talking about something else. like now.

x

ive just been reading about you. about writing a journal/diary that is. i find it slightly entertaining that for one of the first times in awhile, i actually feel a certain comfort or enjoyment in the idea of writing, and its about writing itself ( Read more... )

sat in the house, on my own. feeling a bit sorry for myself really, not that it's particularly justified ( Read more... )

there's something really hurtful about someone wanting to ignore you. to not want to talk or be around you in, what you consider to be, your own home. every time andy decides not to like me, it hurts me. i know he isnt necessarily important or isn't going to have an effect on how others see me or anything like that. i dont hold his opinion in ( Read more... )