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Nov 03, 2006 07:29

here's a big character flaw of mine: i cannot abide extreme talent or success in anyone other than myself, regardless of their field of expertise. deep down, i want to be better than everybody else at everything. which is unfortunate, because by and large i am worse than everybody else at everything ( Read more... )

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222b November 3 2006, 03:15:53 UTC

Don't worry, you're not the only one with this affliction... though maybe yours is high intensity.

I attribute my envy feelings to insecurity. It's usually about education, or lack thereof. I didn't finish college, so anyone whom I respect who actually has is potentially subject to envy from me. Actually, it manifests itself more as me feeling inferior, rather than envious. I think, "Damn, here we are at 27 and they have a cushy $90k programming job while I'm writing video game reviews for pocket money. Why did I go wrong?"

I get jealous of happy couples, too, for obvious reasons.

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222b November 3 2006, 19:30:15 UTC

Well, I'm jealous of Westerners who can successfully live in Japan and South Korea! Few places I'd rather be than there.

Fake finger gunfights with young students sounds enviable too.

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danmazur November 3 2006, 04:03:25 UTC

Very hilariously described, and very common. I've, uh, HEARD of other people who feel that way... not ME, of course!! But damnit, I wish I'd described the phenomenon as well as YOU did!

hughferriss November 3 2006, 04:22:34 UTC

i envy your superior sense of irony!

don't be stu--- ok, i'm the same way. jut November 3 2006, 15:05:33 UTC

I think I've gotten some perspective through adulthood but still have pockets of freak out where i realize the spice girls were in their early 20's when they got famous and i'm like, way older than that now and not famous. And oh, how jealous i get... and like, i don't sing and shit.

figure skaters are on my list along with gymnasts, rock stars, photographers, rich people and people with larger vocabularies (you are one of those). I'm really ashamed to add models to that list too, and it's not because they are SOOO talented, but i think i would of been thrusted into that world at 14 if i lived anywhere else having been a 6' 100lber with a weird face.

I think i'm jealous just on the whole, and I'm especially jealous that I didn't get "chosen" for "stardom" in general. But it is super unrealistic since i am very poor at accepting universal physical attention. It's actually like a serious problem-- people taking photos of me feel like burn.