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May 05, 2010 13:37

this may be the last time i post on this journal. i get closer to that all the time. if you are reading this and you cant deal with anything that might take more than fifteen seconds then bail now and go jerk off or get laid or get stoned or go find someone to kiss your ass so you can feel better about yourself. whatever it takes to get through the ( Read more... )

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robby May 6 2010, 15:09:13 UTC

I didn't realize you are almost 70. My mom passed away at that age. I don't have much interaction any more on LiveJournal, and my journal is evolving into just posts for myself about my projects and gardening. I'm especially enjoying the gardening, as I come from eons of farmers. Turn me loose with a wheelbarrow and a little rototiller, so I can sidestep all the sea of urban angst and neuroses of the screwy electronic LiveJournal world.

hughknox May 6 2010, 15:53:18 UTC

i always admired and respected you very much, and always will. you and simone are the only people i met on jivejournal who actually helped me out in a material sort of way, and that means a great deal to me. i wish you all the luck and joy possible. dont let the bastards get you down.

robby May 6 2010, 15:57:56 UTC

Thank you

hartsong1972 May 7 2010, 00:25:33 UTC

I love you bro, I wish I lived closer and could show you in other than words how important you are to me.

I care... and you don't have to be anything other than who you are for me to care. One of the things I appreciate most about you is your ability to look in the shadows, and speak honestly from the shadows. Life is NOT all sunshine lollipops and rainbows. People who expect such are living in denial of their own shadows. Which is not to say that one can not be optimistic even when life is shit, but to expect others to post sunshine all the time so that THEY can feel all warm and fuzzy is horseshit.

When you stop posting I will miss you terribly here in this little corner of my world. But I can not imagine what it is like to live with the physcial pain that you do. Just know that I care.

hughknox May 7 2010, 05:08:59 UTC

i love you sis, and i care very much about you, too. you are a beautiful person. i still have moments of lillies and sunlight, you know, and laughter, and joy for what was and still is occasionally. i am just dealing with the endgame as best i can, and trying to be honest about it. one of the significant phrases in the dylan song is that it is not dark YET...and our Great Mother loves all of us. what we get in the end is perfect peace.