I'm so glad it wasn't me! I wouldn't have left him ever, I'm glad he left me. Eew. I wouldn't wanna be some jobless person stuck with some jobless momma's boy with no education or future. Then again, I doubt I would have let that happen. If he wouldn't have left me, I wouldn't have been able to be with Joe, and he's all I want right now. I ( Read more... )

*Sigh* I don't think I've ever felt this good. Being able to look back and feel no remorse. I did everything I could, and Hektor was right, he's too weak for me. He let his head be poisoned by lies and deception, by his anger and frustration. I talked to Joe last night, and ay! That's a happy ay! I missed him so much. Ironic cause I ( Read more... )

I feel like it's killing me, but I won't die. I won't do what he's doing. I don't need anymore remorse. Things happened this way for a reason, maybe it was for the best even if my heart is breaking right now. I guess better now than later. I will move on, I will be happy, I will get past this. I won't beg. I won't pretend it's ok cause it's ( Read more... )

I realized that in order to love something or someone, you don't have to have it/them. In fact, it's better if you don't. You can love me, but you can't have me. Now that I love you, I can't have you anymore. I miss him, a lot. I love him. It's more than words, but I can let go of him, because I have. This is a different kind of pain, it ( Read more... )

I haven't been on here for a while. For some reason my LJ seems depressing at the moment. Hek hasn't updated...boo. I'll get through this. I just need some time. ooOOoo...my perfume smells yummy! I decided that I need to get some of the old me back, cause I can't always be such a bitch :D. I'll learn.

Waking up crying isn't the best feeling in the world. Waking up crying because the person that used to love you so much doesn't seem to care about you anymore, is the worse. There is a lot we need to talk about...but nothing ever seems to get said. It feels ugly to know that you can't or don't want to live without someone, and hardly seeing them ( Read more... )

Estoy tocando fondo
Me duele hablar de tí
No quiero disimular
El resto de mi vida
Que no me importas mas

Right now I'm caught in the middle of something. I don't know what to call it. It's make it or break it with Ronnie, and I hadn't been hurt so much by somebody other than myself in such a long time. I was too busy destroying myself to let anyone else come in and help me out. Things are horrible, I never thought I'd be crying like I am right now, ( Read more... )

It doesn't matter if someone believes in you or not. You don't have to prove or disprove anything. You are what you are, and you can't help that. You are the way you are for a reason, and it doesn't matter if it's good or bad. Hold on to everything good that surrounds you, and don't use it up, savor it, and save it up for those times of despair ( Read more... )

What is the difference between something and nothing? I don't think it matters. I am not trying to do anything. I'm not trying to be anything. You shouldn't you should just be and do. Don't you worry about what they will say about you, or think of of you. Do you really prove anything, even if you make a good point? If everyone could have ( Read more... )