They're suffocating me - the doubt, the worries, the thoughts. The thought that I might be doing the wrong thing, that I'm making you unhappy, it's killing me. I wish I could disappear.

 I don't know what I think is going to happen. I know you won't leave me, I know you love me. I believe you when you say you think I'm beautiful... sort of ( Read more... )

 I don't know whether I should tell you when I feel down, or keep it to myself and spare you the pain

 I feel like crying.. all the time.

It's like I'll burt into tears at any moment, for any non-reason. I feel so full of hatred and sadness and regret and pain, and I just want it all to go away and just leave me alone. It's so hard to see the sun when all I can feel is depression and fear, even though I know that there are many many good things in ( Read more... )

 Sometimes I'm just so angry at myself. I don't know where all this anger comes from.

I know /why/ I'm angry, though. But I wish I wasn't. Why do I always feel like I'm either not enough, or too much? Even the things I'm good at: I'm just not good enough. I disgust myself. When I think about it too much or for too long, I get nauseous and feel like ( Read more... )

Could it be?

Could you actually be in love with me?

Maybe, just maybe, you are

I don't deserve you.

I'm so happy, but...
I'm also scared. I don't know how to do this. I /want/ to, but I'm scared I can't, or mess it up.

I wish I wasn't scared, so I could enjoy all the happiness. I feel so confused. I wish I could read your mind.

  I AM A HAPPY PERSON AND I AM REALLY HAPPY AND THAT MAKES ME HAPPY :D :D :D

 I've been sleeping with a light on the past few nights and that's going well. The dark still terrifies me.