So I'll stay safe at my vantage.
On occasion I'll peer in.
You'll grow up out of the corner of my eyes
Right next to him.
You'll need help, you'll need attention.
You're a captivated whim.
But I'm a coward prone to quitting.
I just make sure never to begin.

I really want to make it somewhere doing something without killing people or kissing ass or kidding myself.

new old minivan is mine this saturday. I will finally be able to drive and feel 16 all over again.

I realized that we are really breaking up, that we are already broken up. My heart feels bloated now, I keep thinking about my heart, it is probably something mental. But now I feel sad about all of this.

..And then I got motivated. BIG BIG BIG things.

Played our worst show tonight. LOL! Dekalb Loves us!

on a side note..

..I need to get motivated.

Tonight I bled from my nose, my fingers and my tattoo on my leg, I was lashed in the penis by a whip, as well as my eye, I had hot wax poured on my chest, I was slapped by anonymous people countless times when I layed on a stage demanding audience members to slap me.

I want to do S&M fest again.

as a child, I went to this dentist office in Franklin Park, Illinois, within the dentist office waiting room, there was this built island in this circular room, above the waiting chairs, in the center of this fake island, there was this robot-puppet-animal that would come out and start talking about keeping your teeth clean, everything on this ( Read more... )

So, she hung out with the dude last night, and she admitted to giving him a kiss. They went out on a date we were supposed to go out on.. drag dude, drag.

I had a dream my ex girlfriend wrote a 90 page essay with color pictures on how Ronald Mcdonald killed Mcdonalds? which she wrote with this dude she hung out with yesterday. She came over to my house telling me that the paper was going good, and that she made out with someone in the street team? And ended up telling me it was Steve from WIB.. I ( Read more... )