fuck this i'm out.

anybody interested in the comeback kid show in phx on mar 6? it's the only show i found so far in the time i'm home

i don't know what's best for me. who or where for that matter. "dude you're going to be like henry rollins in 20 years" was the best thing i've ever heard. fuck idolatry, henry rollins doesn't believe in that shit either. but i can't help but look up to that guy. scathing, funny, eccentric, and pissed. most importantly, he's still pissed. i ( Read more... )

i can't recognize this feeling. it's seething. i get off the phone and i'm not better for it, i only feel like i've sunk even lower. i want to breakdown. but i tell myself it ain't that bad and how can it be when it can be so much worse. i could be getting shot at this very moment. i'm safe. but really i'm just sick of being so alone. i've ( Read more... )

feb 27 - sometime in march. i'd rather not think about coming back (here)anyway ( Read more... )

so according to the leave matrix i'm slotted to spend about 16 days in the states as of feb-mar. which kinda sucks because that's way earlier than i had wanted. and besides i was just home like 3 months ago, people think i barely even left. i was trying to avoid kuwait while it's hot. but i'll know soon, as it develops, if that will be for sure ( Read more... )

no one will care but i'm stoked. i've beaten a couple of personal goals this week. i benched 205lbs (i know i'm capable of a little more at this point too) and i shot 39/40 on my weapons qual. i've never shot that good in the army (and i finally earned an expert badge) and the last time i put up anything over 150 was my freshman year of high ( Read more... )

well i hate to jinx myself, it seems like any time i talk about loving a certain band at the moment, or playing a certain game, or starting a certain workout in LJ it all goes to shit not to long after i make some declaration in a post. so i'll speak in a reverse polarity. i don't think reggie and the full effect is one of the best bands ever, i ( Read more... )

i dont like being stuck in the desert when so many of my friends are in a bad spot. not that i'm a big guy. not that i'm a problem solver or a mediator that can dissolve any tense situation. but not being able to do anything but send out myspace messages and calling the handful of people whose numbers i can remember isn't making me feel much ( Read more... )

i coulda swore that first night we were instead on a top secret moonbase. or tattooine. i looked over the dirt burm for the moisture farm. as far as i could see was barren. interesting, makes the SW desert i know look like a tropical rainforest just teeming with ecosystems ( Read more... )