well what is going on with me? hmmm...thats a good question. school sucks, work sucks, and life in general pretty much is a bore and sucks. i havent been in a mood to do anything cuz well i dont really know why...well actually i do but eh who cares? noone needs to know why. i really just dont care about anything anymore...nothing at all. have ( Read more... )

i lived the moment he kissed me and died the moment he left...even though i knew the inevitable was near. i knew the outcome was the same but i still wanted him...even for those few moments, but now they are gone and there is nothing i can do.

well if i could have one wish it would be that i could go back to the night where everything changed for me. the one thing that changed the direction in which my life is going in. the one moment that changed what was going to happen next. if i could then i would be with him and i would be on the right track. everything would feel right nothing ( Read more... )

Have u ever been so close to having something u have wanted for so long and then in one instant it was taken away from u by one little thing...well that has happened to me recently. i had finally gotten to be with someone who i have wanted for such a long time and now its gone!!! i wish i could change that one thing that made this all go to hell ( Read more... )

so i told my mom about everything that happened while she was gone and well that was kinda hard but i did it. we are in trouble but im not sure how much trouble yet. yesterday was alright but tiring and today has been stressful since u know i told my mom. hey well im going to go so talk to ya'll later! sarah

Happy Easter ya'll!!!!! today was kinda fun but not really at the same time. my parents are back in town as of yesterday. which is cool cuz ya i missed them. i am doing much better since my last entry that was one of those where i needed to vent about a few things. The guys and i are doing okay i think even though i havent talked to him much ( Read more... )

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hey yall well lately has been pretty weird but it will all be okay in one way or another. The thing with the guy has a strain put on it because of something that has happened but if everything goes well then who knows maybe i will be with him. i just dont know if i will be able to trust him although i am giving it a try because i think that it is ( Read more... )

THIS WEEKEND WAS SO CRAZY!!!!!! TO MUCH TO EXPLAIN EVERYTING THOUGH. WELL JUST WHEN I THOUGHT HE TRUELY WANTED SOMETHING WITH ME HE PROVED TO ME ONCE AGAIN THAT EVERYTHING HE SAID TO ME ONE NIGHT WAS JUST ANOTHER LIE THE NEXT NIGHT!!!!!!!!!! I SERIOUSLY NEED TO NOT BE SO TRUSTING AND FORGIVING WHEN IT COMES TO CERTAIN THINGS OR PEOPLE IN MY LIFE ( Read more... )

did u know that i have so many people who care about me? but i still feel so alone. i feel like i have a hole in my heart and that it is hollow. i know the only way i can fix it is by figuring out y have have this feeling and do it myself. i can surround myself with all these people who care about me during the day but then at the end of the day ( Read more... )