well i have good news, i barely thought about my ex this weekend. i talked to him online for like 10 seconds today and he was being wierd and had this annoying attitude. all that does is make me miss him less. definitely a good thing.

friday night my friend took me to a strip club. he also got me so wasted that i didn't wake up for work saturday ( Read more... )

why do i think i need a man in my life to feel complete? it's not fair and i feel jealous of single girls who are completely happy on their own. i wanna be that happy. i just feel so alone. i no longer have weekend plans and def don't have plans for halloween anymore :(
i feel like my whole life just went out the window along with my boyfriend. ( Read more... )

hello octoberrr =]
today i decided to make a HUGE change in my life.
i quit school to work full time [yay money!]
good news my car should be fixed by next week. thank goodness because my boyfriend and i are planning a trip to canada next weekend =]
i'm not drinking til then, because i end up eating when i do drink. and i've had to start my fast over ( Read more... )

i spent the night at my boyfriend's last night. we drank wayyyy too much. i feel like shit today & i'm super bloated.
my parents are pissed at me for skipping class yesterday to go shopping..i have no idea how they even found out =/
they can't take my car keys since my car's in the shop though.
thank god i have the day off from everything, i need to ( Read more... )

it's such a shitty day but i got my lazy ass up and jogged anyway. i'm going to lose 15 lbs by november i hope ( Read more... )

so i'm beginning my fast today. coffee & water only. and juice if i'm really craving food and about to eat.
1/2 way through the first day and i feel great! i got my hair highlighted, whent tanning and now get to see my boyfriend! distractions always help, because i'm only hungry when i think about food. my boyfriend and i are going to the cider ( Read more... )

i was supposed to start my fast today, but i binged. all day.
 4  5 slices of pizza
1 praline cookie
cake & icecream
i feel disgusting.
& on top of that my lip ring hole closed up while i was changing it. i was too impatiant to wait 3 more weeks for it to heal so i just took it out. i'm super upset with myself for that.
im confused about my boyfriend. ( Read more... )

i DiDN'T EAT ALL DAY UNTiL i DRANK WITH MY BEST FRiEND AND THEN i ATE. iT STARTED AT MiDNiGHT WITH A BAG OF CHiPS THEN i CAME HOME AND RAiDED MY KiTCHEN. FML.

well i woke up and had my morning coffee & cigarettes.
drank quite a bit of water.
then went to the mall and watched my friend eat a huge slice of pizza and breadsticks. he offered me a breadstick and tried to make me eat it...surprisingly it was easy to turn down.
i drank a low carb smoothie since i cant leave the mall without one.
then i had a 1/2 ( Read more... )

i'm going on day 3 into my super diet.
did fantastic all day until my sister asks me to make her dinner at 10:45. PM! so i fried potatoes & onions (huge weakness) & of course i ate half the potatoes and feel super full and wish i could puke it up.
cw:119
gw:110
i thought i could lose weight by not eating..looks like i need to add some intense cardio to ( Read more... )