I am soo in love with this kid. He is sweet, and fun, and smart, and he is somehow always there for me. And its not even like he has to be there...we are not bffae or whatever, he is just that kind of kid...to me at least...earlier this summer, when I was going through a REALLY tough time, he was just there to talk, and he said that I could come ( Read more... )

soooo i went to fencing camp....was uber scared......thought id get my ass handed to me......but it was super. i met a ton of cool people, and i fenced decently(6 outta 16), although im pretty action-packed w/ bruises(it looks like i have a seriously abusive boyfriend/parent). Got caught in the rain a bunch of times....that was awesome... ( Read more... )

Hola todos. First update in a while ( Read more... )

I'm such a horrible person....I really deserve to go to hell but I can't help it ( Read more... )

If anyone actually still reads what I write, I would like to inform you that from nwo on, I will probably be putting my jornal on "private." All I ever do is bitch in here, and I really don't want that to be all anyone ever hears from me. So, I might occasionally post a happy thought, but aside from that, lj is gonna be my real journal, where i ( Read more... )

its kinda wierd...this feeling......have you ever felt an indescribable emptiness? today i celebrated my b-day w/ the fam, but i still felt like things just werent right....i guess its just the culmination of all of the tough things coming up or that have just passed ( Read more... )

wow i sure do hate feeling sick.....yet here i am, home sick, missing a freakin field trip...what the hell....and im missing practice and theres a meet tomorrow....dammit.....yes well, i suppose since im home i should write this horrible paper for a book i havnt read yet....gr

I really need help....I'm worried about me...nothing ever goes right anymore,...I dont't want to have all of these things to worry about, I dont want to care if I'm getting through school, I dont want to care abotu fencing, or boys, or friends, or family, or if I'm fat or ugly or if someone else needs cheering up....I just want to be alone and ( Read more... )

so guys, Sandy sent me this link and i liked it a really whole lot...it takes forever to load, but its funny, so be patient and u'll like it:

http://www.fluidweb.net/endofthew0rld.htm

so hmmmm, i fell in like, and i fell pretty hard. then i got involved with the like-ee, soo great, couldnta been happier. knew i had to end it cuz u cant be friends w/ benefits if to you they mean something more. today, he told me it was done, i cried a lil. y? i dunno. it might have been my full intent to end it, but just not yet...i just ( Read more... )