why am i updating this? I don't know... i think i just need to vent and not have to hear what anyone has to say ( Read more... )

I really don't know what to do anymore ( Read more... )

would love to know what it feels like to not have to worry about anything :( i can't take it anymore, i want my mom back :( 

people will never understand... my life just isn't the same anymore.... i've accepted it... why cant you? esp. when it's not happening to you... let it goooooo leave me aloneeee i have enough on my mind without having to worry about pleasing everyonee

 This song totally describes my life right now and i'm obessed...

I just heard the world is breaking down into bits again tell me what am I to do and you just want me to stay here so im just gonna stay here Home the last resort Build a castle with an iron door Lock the window Pull the shades The hazed out sun wont help anyway If the world ( Read more... )

i used to think i had life all figured out.... i knew where i was, who i was, and where i wanted to go and how to get there.... but my life stopped when my mom died.... i dont know anything anymore, i have no idea who i am, i dont know where i want to be, and i have no idea how to get anywhere.... i go on each day and act like nothing happened, but ( Read more... )

 so how do i answer, "How are you doing".... "is everything okay?".... "how are you handling everything ( Read more... )

i dont even know why i'm updating this thing.... im just trying so hard to act like everything is fine and normal because i know how it is, people get sick of being around someone who is upset or talkin about the same thing all the time.... and i'm trying to hard to be happy.... but i'm the farest thing from being happy... i really dont think i'll ( Read more... )

well i never thought i was be saying this... but my mom passed away early thursday morning... she had a heart attack in her sleep..  I dont even know what to say or do... you always hear about things like this happening to other people... but it's never supposed to be you... my mom was the glue that held this family together... she was light at the ( Read more... )

so I have completely forgotten about live journal, i was just going through somethings and saw the link i was like, "omg" lol ( Read more... )