I wonder if maybe, perhaps, I am a litle bit bipolar. Or perhaps ocd. With a little bit of pstd for good measure. But then I realize I probably just have trouble understanding how to react to my emotions. Hope is often brushed away by my family's fears (my mom will say something doubting or someone will worry too much. Like ooh don't join the ( Read more... )

I haven't been very expressive about my thoughts or feelings to anyone lately. I have been in the situation where I had the chance to say something about what is on my mind but I choose not to. I have been trying to be well adjusted. And part of that has been forgiving the past and not allowing it to define me ( Read more... )

I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to say. But I don't. I'm tired of trying to move brick walls. I have a friend in Michigan and that is another brick wall! I give up. I don't want to date anyone right now. I wish my cat could go on vacation so I can just sit and think with no obligations. I just wish my horoscope was actually right, not ( Read more... )

or at least i think i do. i've found myself talking to no one lately. Adjusting I suppose. I like the situation I am in. I like to think that I can be with someone who treats me fairly. picks me up from the red-box when i decided to walk home. Someone who laughs at me when I start singing along to a movie i've never seen (but only because he likes ( Read more... )

"in an octopus' garden in the shade" not really sure why that song is in my head ( Read more... )

i have the heccups today ( Read more... )

I did all of my homework today with time to spare. I'm fighting off melatonin just for a little bit longer. I was kind of upset today because I'm torn up about getting into a relationship. I don't play games so unclear communication always gets me ( Read more... )

so i went on a blind date last night. It was pretty terrible. Turns out this guy had many many undesirable traits. First most, I don't mean to sound pretentious - even if i am - but I can't date someone with a thick southern accent who can't write or communicate with people in my city. He admitted to being loud and culturally ignorant and was proud ( Read more... )

necesito hablo en espanol. mi espanol es mal. (pero quere habla en espanol) he tenido una amor por ocho anos. pero mi amor no quiera yo. porque ello es mi amigo? porque yo no se. yo soy depreso ahora. cerveza no es por amor. el es a la depresamos. mi vida son una depresiamos a veces ( Read more... )

Even if I fall on my face, I never fall all the way to the ground ( Read more... )