Well I was about to write a real entry but my mom juust left so I am going to go throw up until I can't do it any more.

I am going to bed now but first I must say I am so proud of myself. All I had today was coffee, cigs, adderal and pop. I was so hungry. My roomate made me come with her to eat so I like cut up all the food and stuck hald of it under the rim of the plate on the tray so it looked like I ate, but I didn't. No real food all day. It feels so great ( Read more... )

I want to get a picture up of me but I dont have a digital camera, sigh. I'll so it when I get home.

Okay so today is THE day. I wont go home this weekend so I wont blow my diet. I am back on track nothing will or can stop me. If I HAVE too eat so that I can work out, it will be half a serving of cereal, no milk. Water, coffee, tea, cigs. If I go today and tomarow without eating I will alow myself to eat soup Thursday. Maybe I will get some ( Read more... )

I ate so much this weekend because my fiance was here and kept making me eat with him. So today I couldn't figuire out why I ate lunch so I purged. Which in turn made me late to class, so I tried to hurry and walk fast... well I slipped on a patch of ice flew about 5 feet before landing on my hands and knees into a puddle of mud. I didn't have ( Read more... )

I am doing fairly well... I think...for now... This weekend is BIG. My 6 month w/ the fiance. So we are each planning a really special weekend. I have to look as thin as possible. I ate once yeaterday (not much) but felt like I was going to throw up so I just went ahead and did it on purpose. Today I have eaten nothing because I get so sick when ( Read more... )

Ah I am home it easier to not eat here than it was at school... suprise! I guess I am just kinda sick of food. Or maybe just sick of feeling gross everytime I eat. Whatever it is it's nice. My parents took me to a buffet tonight and rather than eat every thing in sight then trow up I had a little salad some meat and peaches. It was the only ( Read more... )

So I ate today then burned off over 750 calories, now I am hungry agaIn. Trying to keep myself from eating while I stay up all night to study. I spent 20 minutes looking at pictures of girls my fiance used to hang out with comparing myself to them. I think I am as skinny as if not skinnier than all of them. This makes me happy, it also means I ( Read more... )

So I weighed myself and I am now 120 yeah! I knew if I stuck in there long enough and kept working out I would start loosing again. Also I have lost half an inch off my thighs. During my last phase I didn't work out and lost weight but was still flabby I am so close to being at my lowest weight. I Think I might actually get below it this time! ( Read more... )

Note to all ANA's DON'T DRINK!!! I have decided I am done. I had drank vodka tonight which was about 120 cals then ate about somewhere from 200-300 cals I wanna cry so bad. I was completley threw the hunger for today and had only drank some milk all day...then I drank and all went down hill. Then me and my fiance got into a fight and I was even ( Read more... )