I'm through.

[i_am_mad_hatter]

Maybe I'll just drop out of college and be a police officer... Or I could manage a band... or write screenplays for a living.  I always thought I wanted to be a professional student, but I guess I was wrong.  I want to be a jack of all trades, and that's a waste of money to go to college for.  (preposition, I know.)  I think I'm going to write

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[jubee1]

Wow! I'd never expect you to want to drop out of school of all people! But You should look into the screen writing thing! I know that U Mich offers screenwriting classes so I'm sure MSU would as well.

I love you Mario and I'm sure that whatever you end up doing you'll be very successful and hopefully happy. That's the most important thing...happy.

[i_am_mad_hatter]

Thank you so much Julie. That means a whole lot to me to hear you say that. I'm glad to have support, even in the areas where I would expect none.

By that I mean, most people would see the post as "giving up", but I'm glad you see it for what it actually is, "assessing my options".

I want to see you sometime this weekend, if at all possible.

[jubee1]

I've been going through similar things with myself this semester. The whole 'assessing my options' versuses giving up thing. But I think I may be over the hump of it. Things are looking up I'd say.

I would love to see you sometime this weekend as well...actually on friday night sylvia is teaching us to make dumplings (so we can then eat them) at our apartment and you are more than welcome...I think she told people around six, but I'm gonna be late because I have rehearsal.

[vernination]

I know the feeling. All the people in my life who have expected certain things from me (family, old teachers, myself) have all just assumed I'd be in school forever. Like it was a given that after undergrad comes grad school and maybe more grad school. But then I got to undergrad and felt like I couldn't even handle the next few years, let alone going higher and higher in academia. I wish I could snap my fingers and have a career, just cut through all the bullshit.

So don't you want to be a vet anymore? Or just sick of the process?

[i_am_mad_hatter]

Really, I'm sick of the process. I'm sick of balancing school and life. I'm tired of, like you said, the assumed idea that there's always more schooling to be had. I thought I wanted to spend my life being a professional student, even though it would never work out, but now I know I just want to know things. Sometimes school isn't the best way to know as many things as possible.

[vernination]

Exactly! Maybe it's because I was like, raised by the internet, but in class my mind wanders so much. A prof will say something and take it one direction and I'll just be more interested in another line of thought, and then go home and google whatever the lecture made me think about instead of really mastering the topics as presented. But that said, at least the university environment provides a lot of opportunities to learn outside of class, even if the classes themselves aren't particularly fullfilling. Like, it's frustrating, I just had a way more enlightening conversation with my boss at the galleries about how people use an art history degree than I've had with any profs or advisors so far. And she said she'd set up an internship for me if I want to next semester, so I get to pad my skinny little resume; without being in the school I wouldn't have this job or the benefits it'll give me to get OUT of this school. Life is funny and so's college.