i have never wanted to bash my head in more in my life.

thank GOD for max.
and my wonderful friends.

fuck him and fuck her and fuck them and fuck it and fuck fuck fuck.

hmmm fuck seems to be the word.

crying... what am i? 5?

i dunno.

i wish this bullshit with my family would stop.

i take everything thru my stomach. all my emotions and feelings... and i just hurt there when i'm stressed or anything.

everything wants to come up.

we are not going down this road.again.

yesterday was really fun [[after a mom and jessika incident not worth repeating ( Read more... )

yesterday was really fun [[after a mom and jessika incident not worth repeating ( Read more... )

( long )

i feel so good ( Read more... )

Last night after certain events, I have come to the conclusion, that yes, I am being stupid, but I already knew that.  I've been TRYING to get over this whole thing with you but there was no like... "closure" and therefore, it just wants to stay there.

As for not having a life which gives me time to think about this, I am very busy actually and can ( Read more... )

*sigh*
why can't i just get over it?
i seriously have dreams hating you.
i dwell on it like no other.
i just want it to PASS and i'm SO sick of thinking/remembering it.
sick of seeing you or thinking about you and how you hurt me soooooooooooo bad.
FUCK i'm cursed. :'(

that this is about you ( Read more... )

wow. she's like obsessed. omg ( Read more... )