delusions of reality

[i_bleed_koolaid]

Who is this face behind my left shoulder, sinister in the full length mirror, white and skeletal next to my naked figure in the early mornings and late nights between life and sleep, or love and death? Who am I? Not real. Anti-me. The not-me that gets up in the morning and walks with rocks in her not-shoes to the job and talks with other not-

Comments

[escreecho]

sweet jesus! i love reading your posts.

...it made me think about the way I sometimes stand in front of the mirror and stare into my eyes until I cant recognize myself anymore. I continue staring until the stranger in the mirror starts giving me dirty looks.

[i_bleed_koolaid]

You are far, far to nice to me.

And I do that too, stare in the mirror until I can't recognize who I'm looking at.

Have a beautiful day, amigo.

Hara.

[betterinthedark]

When I say your name I am definitely always looking for my hara, and when you turn around I think it's always worth it.

Re: Hara.

[i_bleed_koolaid]

You need to come visit me again. Do the Tucson thing. We'll hit up the Grill and go random places and do random things. I miss you.

hey look.

[sushi_i_am]

i think the reason that so many of us just drool (as i know we do) over your posts is not only your beautiful word-choice, but the fact that we all identify so well with it and you are finally the one that is able to articulate what we all abstractly feel...you know?

have you read invisible man? i am reading it right now...(i am not experienced enough to understand it i think b/c i dont' get it but it's ok)...i think you would get it and get somethign out of it...it's by ralph ellison...

loves. mwah!

Re: hey look.

[i_bleed_koolaid]

I love that you like what I say sometimes, and I love even more than you can understand. It gives me that whole "Less alone in the world" kind of feeling.

And I get the feeling that you always are reading the most amazing books. I'm totally going to check that one out. Thank you so much for the idea.

Have an absolutely amazing day, mi amiga.

Thanks :)

Hey

[jmdj]

I strongly STRONGLY suggest you purchase the book House Of Leaves. Read it. that is all i can say. the writing in it resembles that of your journal entries

[cheeky_chipmunk]

hey, can you add me????

[i_bleed_koolaid]

Yeah, of course.

But just out of curiosity, who are you?