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[i_bleed_koolaid]

Shit.

I am going to live to be sixty.

Fuck.

I am going to die alone

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[bootdevil]

i've been thru that many times in the past four or so years.

it... yeah. sucks.

i'm surprised at your expression "i'm going to live to be 60. fuck" etc. that's literally what i've thought many times. it's like... "my god, if i actually live anywhere near an average lifespan... i'm going be like THIS... for umpteen more years. how long can i fucking TAKE that?" etc.

bleah.

[i_bleed_koolaid]

Apparently, some people are just gluttons for pain.

Either that, or maybe there's still something worth living for. Who knows.

[mustibeoriginal]

"And I've done it again."

Ok. And what are you going to do about it?

[i_bleed_koolaid]

Oh, the same thing I always do...not call, not answer his calls, cry pathetic obsessive amounts, go out with my friends, fuck someone else, meet new people, keep myself insanely busy, flirt with other guys, and get over it. Eventually.

Until I'm randomly going through my closet two years later and come across a shirt that isn't mine, or I buy a bar of irish spring soap, and realize that I'm never really going to be over it, and then I'll move on.

And then I'll do the same thing with someone new.

it's dumb i know

[forlornrags]

but sometimes i wish i could save you.

thinking of you and hoping...

mary