i need to stop drinking and get this fucking weed out of my bedroom

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 broke up with the boyfriend

still crushing on the best friend

dyed my hair purple

going to procrastinate school by writing songs about how hardcore i am on piano and drinking tea and remembering to take my iron tablets every day

yeah you know me, just living the dream

 going out with the boyfriend

still crushin on the best friend

rock on hardcore

 well life what the fuck is this

i dont even like him anymore and he wants me back

after his friend had reassured me he had moved on FOR REALZZZ

and i fell a teeny bit for his friend

AND NOW EVERYTHING IS JUST FUCKED UUUPPPP

but honestly, yeah, im just messin wit cha how sikkk is my white grrl angst yo

... so why aren't i happy?

why don't i feel anything at all?

why do the tears come at night?

why does my heart tell me to start running, and never stop? 

 everything is bad right now

i cant run
i cant sing
i got no one to dance with
my stupid ex boyfriend has moved on
that bitch is in my turf

gahh

 i miss him so much
i miss him so much it hurts me inside

its just the... not knowing... that keeps me from letting go

 i hate myself

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 i am so fucking sick of people telling me to do whatever i want, i will anyway.

i cant even remember the last time i did something i wanted.

the basic con

Those who can't find anything to live for,
always invent something to die for.

Then they want the rest of us to
die for it, too.
 - Lew Welch