livejournal? are you alive?

I feel like I am watching my life from far away. watching myself make decisions, watching my reactions and finding myself wondering what I'll do next, because not even I know. my life is a blur. a big fucking blur and if I said that anything seemed important at this point in time, I would be lying. my single goal right ( Read more... )

"I want to be proud of you, but you just make it so hard."

ouch.

i want to be one of those people who gets excited about the littlest things. who doesn't take anything for granted. who really appreciates everyone they know and sees the good in every situation.

it's a wake up call, too bad i don't want to be woken up.

please don't tell me you're crazy too,
i'm dependent on your sanity.

i don't understand you. nothing to do with pride, i don't even have pride. maybe i just don't think you really know what you're talking about and you can't make my decisions for me, no one can. i'm young, let me live. with or without you, whatever.

i'm not letting this get to me.
i like where i am.

i put your sweatshirt on. i put your sweatshirt on and i went outside. i went outside and i thought about you. i thought about you and everything you have done for me. i thought about everything you have done for me and everything we have been through. i thought about everything we have been through, and i know it's love.

Though i am dark ‘bout the whys of wanting
Though i am dark, i’m still a child
Gonna dig a coal mine, climb down deep inside
Where my shadow’s got one place to go
One place to hide

i want to change the world
instead i sleep.
i want to believe in more
than you and me.
all that i know is i'm breathing.
all i can do is keep breathing.
all we can do is keep breathing.

now is one of those times when i would love nothing more than to let go and fall over.
i do not know where they have gone.

i think you are just great.
no one can make me smile like you do, no one.
oh, you.

well i thought i felt my heart beating.
well i thought i'd never know that feeling.
well my heart was like a cave and now the light shines in it.
oh to fall in love is great, if you've got love, give it.
oh my heart was like a stone, it barely knew.

oh, turn your love to ( Read more... )