I can not believe what I have just read. I truly forgot that I ever even had an LJ. This all seems fake to me now.I'm shocked at how much I don't remember of my life, how much is blurred, how much is completely insignificant. I'm shocked at what a pathetic and embarrassing adolescent I was. I am blessed to have grown into the adult that I am now. I ( Read more... )

I want to run under sun rays, throw leaves in the air, and fall into a tunnel of music, landing somewhere I have never seen. A realm of wonder, devoid of anxiety, drowning in color and fresh air. A place called love. A place called electric eyes, smiling parents, silver lined friendships, and frosty tears. A world where I will understand your pain ( Read more... )

... Strange how some people enter your life for short periods of time but can have such large impacts on it. Strange how you can be so sure that they are so wrong and not think twice about leaving, or even look back, til much much later.... and realize they are so many reason why you are YOu today ( Read more... )

I find it strange how sometimes the people that make your life so wonderful are the ones that can make you feel the shittiest. Why are the ones that make me realize the best things about myself also the ones that crush me because of my faults. Why are the ones i love the ones i actually have the capability of hating ( Read more... )

So here i am. Back home. New man. New drama. New hobbies. Newly sober. And i have learned that there is a lesson in almost everything. I am ready to be happy though. I quit my job and finished my first year of college, actually did good too :) Now is time to relax and write the way i used to. Fill my life with the people i used to. I am taking up ( Read more... )

Since my last entry i have entered a world completely unknown to the person i once was. i have climbed the highest level of experience and fallen so hard that my existence almost became clear. i have moved out picked up other jobs and started college. i have fallen into a sea of love hate drugs and memories that seem as though they are not even ( Read more... )

And i head off into another chapter of my life.....

And everything is different.....

So has life ever been so good it scares you?!!?!? haha huh? cuz im freaking the fuck out with happiness. Like i have never laughed the way i have been in my life. Its good. I feel like the fact that i am in debt for the next two paychecks does not even matter. I start my new job in two days. Starts at 7.50 baby haha better than the shit i make now ( Read more... )

Coffee...paper...book...notes...

Interruptions.

Frustration.

I think im okay.

Fuck it.

Im fine.

Ahhh.

Haha.

This day is gonna be alright.

And i feel okay alone.

It's love and love only.....

right?