I feel as if Ive been letting lots of people down recently. I hate working, but I have to, its my responsibility that I work. I made a deal with getting my car that I must help out paying, and the insurance went up so I have to pay more than I want to. Sometimes it feels like the 2 closest friends I have almost resent me for some reason or ( Read more... )

So my Tempo shat again. and again. Im going to get a new car with this week, which is cool so I can rely on something finally and have a clean car. The shitty thing though is that I have to take a new loan which means I'll have to contribute more, and work about what I am now. I dont like it but it'll be worth it somehow I guess. I just have ( Read more... )

I think I just screwed up real bad. I think that I upset Courtney, and I didnt try to upset her. I was being a dick though... I tried to get there in time for her break. I did get there but I had to get my car cause Jeremy wouldnt just stay for a half hour... so I went back to try and see her for a couple minutes... I tried with something so ( Read more... )

I just want to be there for her so much right now. I dont want her to feel like were not as close, I certainly wont, Im in love her. I just want to help... oh I just love having tears in my eyes...

I wish changing the past was possible. I wouldve changed this whole thing. I wouldnt have even started smoking in the first place, then there would be no cause for concern right now about smoking. Im the cause behind all of this. I caused all these problems. It was all my folly. I just hate myself for what I caused. I didnt mean to mess up, ( Read more... )

So, IM a TOTAL fuck up. As Ive always said, i fuck so many things up. I got suspended for 3 days out of school for smokin in my car on school grounds. Umm... so Im grounded... I have to stay at my moms til Weds cause Im a fuckin idiot. I'll still be able to see Courtney, but thats a secret. I'll see her as much as I can, as long as she goes to ( Read more... )

So Im waiting to go to work in like 10 mins or so. I feel like I fucked up today. It wasnt what it seemed like, it really wasnt. I dunno... Sometimes I really wonder why I fuck up so much and make people think things that arent how they really are. What the fuck is wrong with me. ARGH ( Read more... )

So, people need to shut their fucking mouths, all they do is talk shit. I cant fucking take this, for this to keep constantly going, i just cannot fucking do it. I hate the people who make me feel like shit, I hate the people who have shit to fucking say, I hate the people who like to ruin things. I hate so many people. I cant take it much more ( Read more... )

I love you Courtney.

I dont update much... been kinda busy. I hardly work anymore, thats good because i fucking hate Taco Bell... FUCK THEM.

I really only have one thing to say...

I love you Courtney, I dont know where I would be without you. I need you in my life, I love you in my life. Nothing will ever change that. I love you.