think of me before closing
eyes for sleep
and dreams of me
when it's dark. then
wonder early in cold
light if
i'm awake with thoughts
or under
the comforter
warm dreaming of you.

my artist statement: i like to play with paint.

i'm awake ( Read more... )

I love Chaim Soutine's landscapes:

( Read more... )

things are looking better. tomorrow i'm going to have a productive day. i want to:clean my room and bathroom, hang my pink lights, get the paper assignment for my video class, and work on amy's paintings. i think thats a reasonable amountof things i can get done in a day. if mitch really needs me to help him out tommorrow i might do that ( Read more... )

and the trees were wispering on my walk this morning, with an overcast and windy cold breeze, and yellow-brown leaves scattered across the concrete and the little plots of grass that we call our front yards ( Read more... )

i've been sitting on couches all day. going back and forth down the hallway from sitting on couches to the kitchen where i was cooking dumplings and back again to the couches. i didn't feel like doing anything today. such is life when you're experiencing almost every menstrual symptom there is ( Read more... )

i'm feeling much better today, it's gorgeous outside. i just turned on the heat for the first time this winter, it's effin' freezing in this house. Aaron spent the night last night and we woke up early this morning and went to the cozy corner for breakfast. I got up and put together a cute outfit and my 90's Blossom-esque hat and aaron put on his ( Read more... )

i'm going to my frist therapist appointment in two hours. it'll be good for me to talk to someone, and to discuss the pros and cons of the possibility of going on an anti-depressant. i'm feelling very low thismorning as i was last night, and at least this appointment will force me out of the apartment and into the day. i've got to run to the bank ( Read more... )

the party was just as i imagined it would be, and i'm feeling sad tonight ( Read more... )