i'm miss piggified and about to go out, but i'm feeling low and down to the ground ( Read more... )

so i ran smack into chase yesterday in the hallway (yeah thats literal) and i stuttered out some incoherent noises as i tried to form words to say after he asked how i was doing. "erri'mehhstrm." something along those lines. CHOKE ( Read more... )

camping with aaron was amazingly beautiful, quiet, theraputic, and calming ( Read more... )

i'm feeling much more calm and collected today, i have a critique tonight, inhale, then i'm hanging out with my friend jamie, exhale, sleep and then work tomorrow at noon, inhale, then cash my checks and get things ready for the trip, exhale sleep and then i'm off to the forest for recooperation with my best friend ( Read more... )

after breaking down and crying to my mom and not even being able to identify why exactly i was crying, i finally came to the conclusion that i am again depressed. i've been fighting it and in denial about it. but it's time to face up, i'm fucking miserable and i really don't have any reason to be ( Read more... )

i've slept in and this place is a mess but oh... it was beautiful sleep, my body is happy for it ( Read more... )

i've decided that if i cater to my body mind and spiritiual well being than everything else will just fall into place ( Read more... )

submreged in memeory soup ( Read more... )

i finally feel physically normal again today, all day yesterday i was pretty much worthless. extremely hung over and dehydrated. yuck. i slept all day and ignored my mother's phone calls and listened to sad music. horrible. i needed to do homework...i didn't. So i called chase yesterday and talked to him very briefly, i apologized to him for being ( Read more... )

I really have no idea what actually happened. There were mass amounts of whiskey and beer consumed, there was really good conversation...and then, there was kissing, and contemplations, and embrace after embrace and more contemplation, questioning and confusion, proclamations of drunkenness. he said i was quite beautiful, he said he wanted to get ( Read more... )