hey people. sorry i havent updated in a while. been really busy and my mommy has been home sick so i never get a chance on the puter lol. but she is gunna get a new puter and delete all her stuff off the old one and give me the old one. but thats cool. i had SOOO much fun buying brian his bday gifts! i cant even keep it to myself but i cant say ( Read more... )

me and brian did good today. we didnt argue at all. uhm yeh but i hafta go find out movie times right now and ill update more later lol. later yall =)

yeh im feeding my fat again. ok i went to capes open house. it was alright but i still want baker so yeh. me and brian talked for a while last night and we ddnt fight or anything. we just talked a friend basis and it was cool. i look like shit today. i really just didnt feel like putting on anything so i threw on a baggy long sleeve shirt and ( Read more... )

pretty shitty day i guess. uhm well i guess ill start with the shitty part. well, last night me and brian were text messaging and thruout the night i got like 200 messages from him and they were all the same ones and then i guess it fcked with my phone cuz then i couldnt get anything and nothing was coming thru and it was realy pissing me off and ( Read more... )

well me and brian are on a break and its really not working again. we keep talking and sitting together and kissing and all this stuff but its not helping. hes scared that im not gunna come back to him or that imma find someone else to be with or something like that. hre thinks im happy about all this bullshit. but im not. im scared too. im scared ( Read more... )

gawd, dude, im so afraid that brian aint gunna wanna wait for me to figure all this shit out... i mean, i know he loves me and he knows i love him but i dont know what the fuck is going on. dude, if i ever lost him.. you people just dont have a fucking clue what would happen to me. i would literally just fall off the face of the earth. he means the ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! yay!!! so im 14... yip-dee doo!!! but now i only have 18 months til i can get my permit hehehe =) look out world... here comes nikki!!! hahaha! im goin on either friday night or saturday mornin to get my bellybutton redone... yay! =) and my party is on saturday... anyways, imma go so i can feed my fat... later yall... HAPPY ( Read more... )

only 2 days til my birfday!!! but im sick.. ugh... i got sick n yaked all over yesterday... my cousin took me deep sea fishin yesterday n it was REALLY rough so i yaked n hardly fished cuz i couldnt even look around without throwin up. but then when we got back i was fine cuz it wasnt rough. we saw dolphins n everything. they were tryin to spot me ( Read more... )

hey yall. gawd i cannot believe i am up this early. today is the one year aniversary of the day carlos died ;( its sucks-i miss him. but me and brian got everything worked out so thats all better. my mom was lookin at cancun prices last night so i guess we are goin this year. brian is gunna go with us if he can get a job n stuff. hes goin to matts ( Read more... )

me and brian got in a big fight last night n i couldnt even talk to him-i hadda talk to matt instead. it was bullshit. but it was my fault. as always. im waiting on taco hell. oooh! i got a new nickname in drama today! JuBu! isnt that so great?! she a weirdo but shes cool. she kept on throwin the ball at me n i never saw it n it kept hittin me. so ( Read more... )