I think im going to go a whole different direction in life now, it feels like i have no friends for some reason. Im never invited to go anywhere with anyone, and it feels like whenever someone wants to hang out with me, they are using me because i have a fucking license. Plus since im not at the high school anymore, i dont keep in contact with ( Read more... )

Well, i havent been very into updating lately, simply because its an extreme waste of time... and the person that i mainly updated for now hates me and everything. But its ok, because sooner or later i will succeed at my mission. If you dont know what it is already, then dont ask. Because i wont tell any of you ( Read more... )

The wounds are healing nicely, But the scars and pain of self infliction will always be there to remind me of the pain that i have felt, along with the desperation. Update with more information next time.

I love a girl, but she doesnt see that she is everything to me....

Ya know, its bad enough that i second guess myself, but to have other people do it as well, now thats just plain fuckin stupid. Im really getting sick of this shit, its like i cant fuckin say anything without someone having to run a background report on the shit. And you want to know who second guesses me the most... Holly. And i dont ( Read more... )

ugh, im really bored right now so so i thought i would update! This week has been cool, i started work yesterday and did fries for the last half hour of my shift. Wow, that was interesting let me tell ya ( Read more... )

Ive officially quit smoking, and i have to admit, it feels really good. My attitude is gone and im maturing really fast, i think that me quitting smoking has something to do with it along with not lying anymore. Me and holly are kinda friends again, and im glad we are friends ( Read more... )

Done with smoking completely, cuz yesterday i didnt think that i would be able to not have another one all day, but i didnt, and im happy. Holly is still mad at me, which i dont want her to be, cuz we were really good friends. Right now i dont really care though, if she wants to be mad at me about something so miniscule after being good friends ( Read more... )

Im happy, i had my last cigarette this morning at 730am!!! My attitude is starting to go away, and im not lying anymore, which is a good thing, a very good thing! Now the only things i need to do are get rid of my attitude completely, and lose weight. Itll be hard to do but i know i can do it! Update Later!

Today i decided that its a very good idea to completely reform myself. Im quitting smoking, im going to lose weight even if it fucking kills me, and my attitude problem is going to disappear completely. Im not going to try to impress anyone. I wont lie anymore, i refuse to do so because it just makes me look like a fucking retard. Im sick of ( Read more... )