Hey! I have almost made It one month and 1 week. So 1 month and 6 days. YAY GO ME!!!! YIPPY! Well Dot is really sick! She has something wrong with her pancriase (SP?) She Has liquids comming out both ends (if you know what I mean). I feel sorry for her! I hope she gets better ( Read more... )

Hey Yall!!1 I am at WORK!!! YAY! NOT! I swear I could go crazy! I can't hear my music on my xanga at work cause there are no speakers! I am so tired! It is sooooo SLOW! I am going crazy! I swear! I really Dont know what to say. If I where home I would have taken my drugs and gone to sleep. Cause I really wanna cut right now! I am going bannanas!! ( Read more... )

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ok if you wanna talk... I am very suicidal and I just feel worthless on the earth I dont see why I am here. It is all completely pointless. I just feel so freaking stuck and stupid. This guy I met on a chance and we hit it off and I REALLY like him and he and I are both cutters (which I didn't kind out until later) we have so much in common it is ( Read more... )

I told you I would be back..... Last night my meds knocked me out. So I didn't do anything stupid. I don't think that I could ever go through with it anyway. I just wish somthing would work out. No i really wish that my parents would accept me for me. They want me to be like they use to be. My mom use to be this beautiful model actress, my dad was ( Read more... )

Hey everyone.... I know it is laurens birthday tomorrow. But I am very suicidal.... I just want to die I feel like shit all the time now and thanks to my parents they reinforce it. I know you guys love me and all that I just feel like it is a complete waste of time for me to be here on this earth ( Read more... )

Hey... When everything is made to broken I just want you to know who I am. I bleed just to know I am alive! I can't feel anything! I and just a see with depressing feelings. I dont want the world to see me cause I dont think that they would understand. I know I am taking lines from the song but it is how I feel. I just feel like a pile of shit! I ( Read more... )

Kyle UPDATE... We are fine he likes me and I like him, BUT (always a BUT) he and I are both cutters and we are both stuggling with it right now and we have to work on ourselves. Maybe when we work on ourselves we can work on a relationship. We have so much in common it is freaky! I swear it like I have been looking for him and there he is but I can ( Read more... )

IrisHey Yall.... I hope you like my new song! Well I finally got a lot of my answered tonight. I got to see Kyle. God Works I misterious ways. Right after I filled out a prayer request Kyle shows up and we talk and I find out that he is a cutter too. This is why he didn't answer my phone calls. He knows that I like hime and he is cool with that. He ( Read more... )

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