i suppose ill make one last lj post before i turn 18. im on my new phone right now and im pretty excited. my first bday party is tomoro night and im so excited. lip ring and taco bell and rumncoke and kisses...i cant imagine a more perfect night...and thats probly bad lol

it's my last day of high school ( Read more... )

I've become a victim of my own game.

I hate when I lose the control.
it's not fun anymore.

quitting is incredibly hard ( Read more... )

I have no will power.
I also have no inner ability
to bottle anything up.
I'd wish to be indifferent
if I weren't so sure
I'd feel better soon.

I like to think
that what I think caused this
actually didn't cause this
and maybe I was feeling this
before that happened.
but there's always the chance
that what I think didn't cause this
actually did.
which would be really messed up.
either way
I feel weak.

dana got in an accident today ( Read more... )

I'm in the mood for lovey dovey movies...
and I know myself well enough
to know what that means.
and I know myself well enough
to hate what that means.

I knew it would fuck us up.

so if I could give anyone advice ( Read more... )

last night was amazing.
it was one of those nights where you wonder
"did all of that really happen?"
I drank and played pong and smoked
and laughed with lindsay
and sang and danced
and cuddled
and it was all just complete and perfect
and I didn't sleep
at all.