why can't i be better? i can't i have talents? why must there be so many people around me just proving that they are better than me? i don't have talents. i'm not excellent at anything. i'm just average, plain. i didnt make it into gsp. it shouldnt have been a surprise but even though i knew it wouldnt happen i still had hope. i thought "maybe i ( Read more... )

i think im better off just being friends with people. and i dont think i like anyone at this point anymore. friends are better. now i know everyone is probably like "emily agh why are you always saying stuff like this. in a week you will want a boyfriend" and well honestly this may be true but i would rather live in the present and presently i am ( Read more... )

today i picked up jeremy, otis, and emily and brought them to my house for a musical party. yay. later allison was able to join us too. =D well first we watched chicago and at first we were actually watching it (while eating hamburgers, fries, and fudge) but then otis started being crazy so it just led to everyone being crazy ( Read more... )

eric and i often discuss the eisenbrey curse but today we realized that we just must break it. the eisenbrey curse is a horrible curse that stops people in our family from being in relationships. all the girls eric knows have girlfriends. all the guys i know just dont like me as more than just a friend. we are both cursed. well and since i watched ( Read more... )

anyone who has not already decided on a college should check out murray! i mean it! check out the majors and the campus and everything b/c if it has the majors you want you should go. it is so awesome. the campus is beautiful. the people are really friendly. there are tons of fun activities you can do. its just awesome. there is no way i am not ( Read more... )

i am so happy. so so so happy. happy happy happy happy. i cant stop smiling. tee hee. and only allison knows why i'm so happy (oh and i just told alex but anyway) tee hee. but im not going to say why im happy b/c if something goes wrong then i dont want to have to tell everyone why im so sad. but anyway... i am so so so happy!!!!! when i got home i ( Read more... )

-going to kroger in a poodle skirt ( Read more... )

i havent been on lj for awhile b/c i have been so busy. i really hate really big show. it is too much work for something that is going to suck anyway. well my weekend was spent at a youth encounter. it was fun. those things always make me feel closer to god. i hate church but i love youth encounters. we did a service thing packing food for starving ( Read more... )

my sleep pattern is so messed up and i dont know how to fix it. I keep having trouble falling asleep at night so i keep sleeping during the day. today i had planned to read all my books on japanese education so that way this week i could write my 8 page paper for english but instead i slept for at least 3 hours. im so tired of this bc i never get ( Read more... )