im kind of tired.  and im not really sure of what to do with myself.

one person is being stupid. lets just leave it at that.

So I guess you could say its been awhile since ive written in here... haha yeah....

And i just feel like i need to get some stuff out there
Im fine and all, like this stuff bothers me but its not like im overly upset about it..

So last night. we all went to the movies and then hung out at the mall for awhile
And me and jessica went to eat in the food ( Read more... )

MEh. im doing it again. I miss. them. so . much. and today. i was like, hey i should start becoming good freidns with maddie again. and . guess what. shes not...here anymore....i hate it when i dothat. i hate it when i totally forget that someones not htere anymore and then it all comes rushing back. danikas sounds really happy....im happy for her ( Read more... )

haha i have written so much in here lately...

its just that my moods keep changing and it actually makes me laugh when i think about....

cuz i woke up in the like most perfect mood this morning....lmao i dont know why...i just did....i guess its cuz i found out why i had been gaining weight lately lmao. i had no control over it...so haha im fine ( Read more... )

Alright, well today. was awesome. .... for the most part

me michelle jon and thoams all went to grossmont to see 40 yr old virign...so we bvought tickets to supercrosswed and then snuck in to the one we wanted to see... we watched part of it and it was HELARIOUS...but then they asked for our tickets...and we got kicked out. damned grossmont

so we ( Read more... )

:-). its over.

my damn stupid moods are over thank godddd..

alright so today im going tot he movies with sydnie jon michelle and thomas....dont think ill ask zach to go cuz he never can when i ask him this late...but eh ill see him some other time.<3

hmmmi need to go shopping. i think im goin friday. and then the friday after that too . and ( Read more... )

.....I cried in church today....this isnt normal...who. cries. in. church. WHY would you cry in church. im crazy. thats it im jsut crazy. and then my sister blew up at me. like i needed that. and she got back together with josh. ray wouldnt shut his fat mouth like always at lunch again. meh

then i guess i blew up at my mom. i told her i didnt wanna ( Read more... )

FUCK what is wrong with me. i dont get it. i honestly dont.

i cant do this. all i wanna do is just sleep and not wake up sometimes. like. i dontwanna live like this. i cant ever sleep. and so i stay up. for hours. to where im jsut sitting and thinking. about all kinds of shit. and theres no one there for me to talk to .  no one. except michelle ( Read more... )

so today was awesome....forthe most part.....zach, michelle, thomas, jon, and josh came over....for like 10 hours....
i love them.

but now im just sitting here. and i realized...that i have an empty spot in my stomach...

what....do you do...when you wanna be with someone all the time? and when ur with them, theyre all you can think about...and ( Read more... )