I dont have much to add at this point. Life is sucky at the moment. My power is to be shut off today. My tire is flat. I have no job....what else can possibly go wrong? I think I need a break mentally from all this crap. I think im going to go off and hybernate until things get better. They have to get better dont they? I hope they do...Holding ( Read more... )

so its been a while since i last updated this stupid journal. Alot has happened..Not much I feel like talking about. My brother may or may not be a father in a few weeks..I could care less..Tired of the stress. I gotta find a job so I can move out..Tired of the drama. Tired of it all. Tired of you saying your my friend but never making a call ( Read more... )

Ive had these dreams....These reaccuring dreams of self injury. Its almost too real...almost too scary. ive thought alot about it. alot about hurting . I havent had time to really sit and think about it lately. I havent seen Kelli much lately either. nor many of my other friends. I barely touch my email. which says alot. I live in this same ( Read more... )

I amaze myself on a daily basis..but lately its been def. different. I can be depressed for weeks and then on the whim of my brain I can be happy about nothing. I dont understand this. Its freaking retarted. Why cant I just be normal....It gets on my nerves ( Read more... )

I had a dream the other night.. A dream like no other. I saw her in this dream. I saw my little girl. This has been on my mind since the dream occured. I saw her. She was so beautiful and so perfect. I wasnt able to hold her but once. In the dream she was taken from me. I wish I could hold that little girl again. But no one understands that ( Read more... )

Welcome to my Life by Simple Plan ( Read more... )

For every up..There is an even more painful downfall. Everything happens for a reason they say. Well I don't see the reason in that. In this...In anything that has happened. Maybe its the lack of meds...Maybe its because I barely sleep anymore. Who am I kidding. I thought I could do this. I tried to do this. Yet am now under water and mud ( Read more... )

Ok so I know love Sean more than anything else at this point. The respect I have for him is great. His mom is the most well known person with Bipolar disorder. She in no way made it easy on his life..and look at him now. Awesome I tell ya ( Read more... )

Ok so Diann the wonderful youth leader at our wonderful church has completely turned everyone at Hardee's against me because I told Kelli some stuff Diann was saying about Kellli's dad. My mom started to tell at me for lying to Diann and I let into her and she eventually got to a point she left the Diann thing alone because Diann herself was ( Read more... )

Do I not have a right to be a little mad?