This little world of mine is sucky beyond belief. I can't get one person who can keep their word or not lie to me about anything. I am sick of the crap that I deal with. It is beyond me why a person would lie to someone instead of telling the truth. Especially over something silly and stupid. Nothing makes me madder than someone lying to me ( Read more... )

Well where shall I begin? Life has been nothing short of just plain crazy. I just don't know where to begin anymore. I guess I could start with the fact that I hate my job more than life itself. I have no choice tho to keep the job. I have to prove to myself this time around that I can work everyday and do a productive day of work ( Read more... )

Ok so things have been a lil crazy around here for the past few days. Tuesday I went to the doctor. Found out my Liver enzymes are still elevated. which means this whole time that they have had me off the Lexapro. Its been for nothing. It was not the cause of my enzymes to be high. So I see Dr. Safdar on Dec. 1st to schedule my Liver Biopsy. ( Read more... )

Ok to all of you who know me in real life. When I die I want this played at my funeral ( Read more... )

Well..its offical. I am not going to be spending the holidays with the family. I am not allowed to. My mom wants to spend the holidays in happiness and peace and I bring none of that to her so therefore I am banned from participating in any of the holiday festivities. hmm. I don't think she realizes how much she hurts me. I havent done ( Read more... )

This thought just will not leave me. I want to know. What else is there to live for? I mean there is nothing left on this earth that would make me happy. This black whole has consumed what was left of my pathetic body. I cannot win this fight. Suicide is all I have thought of all day. I cannot fight these urges any longer. They have consumed ( Read more... )

At this very point. This very moment. My life has changed drastically. I no longer want anything from this life. From this earth. From anyone on this earth. I am ready to meet my Lord and Savior. I am tired of this earth. I am tired of fighting the battles everyday. I am tired of the scars and the pain that comes with them. Im tired of it ( Read more... )

I can't believe how cold hearted the world can be. How they have let Satan drive them to the place where they have no morals or no convictions of anything. I am beside myself how people can deny the one person who created them. Who loves them even tho they are fools and do not believe. I just can't believe how evil this world is at this point. ( Read more... )

So today..well this morning was exciting for me. I went and voted. Never had the chance to do that before. The honor I should say. So far Bush is ahead of Kerry. I hope he wins. I am however disappointed in our state. Why they choose to be Democrat is beyond my comprehension. anyways. work sucked today..but when does it not? lol ( Read more... )

Does anyone understand that? Be Happy Trinity. Nobody understands what that means. Nor will they ever. I just like how the mystery of it stands ( Read more... )