This is the last straw for me, I am so sick of being hurt and treated like crap. I have to get all this shit done for school or there goes my diploma, well my brother randomly walks into the room and sprays my art work with a water gum causing it to run, and not a damn thing is done. I am so fucking over this place!

Just wanted to write this down before I get sad and forget ( Read more... )

If I can just get it in my head that I need me to get better maybe I could stop falling apart long enough to make an actual effort, Ian and I are talking about getting a place together and I really think that that could be the answer that not being here could solve all my problems, well not all my problems but it could be a foundation that I could ( Read more... )

I look in the mirror and I feel so dissatisfied and I just want to cry and my stupid mother doesn’t help, I have been throwing up for 2 days and what does she say to me? Well at least you’ll lose some weight - well you know what I want to say back ( Read more... )

Seems that things have gone back to the same old shit. All I heard all night at the wedding shower was “she could have been this” she could have been that” but what about who I am? SO what I am fat - that’s me, SO what I am artistic and not athletic - that’s me. She needs to learned to take me as I am or just fuck off and die. She never mentioned ( Read more... )

well things have been up and down since my second return to the hospital - yes I returned to the hospital once again, but I only stayed 3 days that time and I am feeling a bit more confident about being out and trying to cope. As I have said before the highs in my moods are uncontrolable and the lows are unbearable - but hopefully I can get all ( Read more... )

I have no more words

I am writing with the regret of having sad news, though I ask you not to be all too concerned - all is well or will be well soon. Life is a struggle - that is something I have learned ( Read more... )

To all of you who know why I've been away thank you for not running in terror the other way - my journey from now on will be a hard one, but there is one thing I know - I am going to get better - whatever it takes - because I cann't go through this amount of pain anymore ( Read more... )

(x) smoked a cigar ( Read more... )