hmm.... :-/

Heh...Life is a good thing. You always realize that when u least need to lol. But @ least we realize...A certain someone makes me all happy & stuff lol....& I like that....I like thinking about dating them....Like literally...Like u know go'n out together lol....in person. lol....:-D it makes me smile hehe lol. I can see it...It looks nice lol. Ok ( Read more... )

I wonder what it is I'm suppose to feel....Should there be anger residing where it does now? Why must there always be pain....anger....frustration....hurt.....I'm tired....Tired of dealing, tired of fighting....I'm tired of not knowing what I'm fighting for anymore. I just want love...security....nothing shy of everything everyone wants. I'm tired ( Read more... )

Not gonna write much....just need to write something since words are all I have. Today was hell, I may explain later...maybe not....but I wonder, what next. How can something go from so damn cute an amazing to figthing over....*sighs* Hell who knows, I guess I was wrong. I need to get away....I though I had....gotten away I mean....Tonight when I ( Read more... )

So many mixed feelings. Trying to know what's right or wrong, assuming I already do. I talked to Bear last night on the phone, for a good while...I love that girl! I've never clicked with a friend like I do with her. It's like we are essentially the same person. NO need to describe feelings about stuff really, cuz we both have the same ones. And we ( Read more... )

Spiked dog collar....maybe a glimpse into my sexual side? Hmm....I wonder....:-p


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-Attempts to type through blurred vision-

Life...Love...Feeling...

I have not felt pain like this in....so long.

-bawls but attempts to continue-

What I know....I need to think. I need to sleep. Rest the mind.

I tried to call you...you weren't home. I was bawling. Your mom hung up on me. I'm not waiting up for you. I will be online tomorrow ( Read more... )

Almost always going......

never coming.

-Me

indecision u fucking bitch. Maybe things are gonna turn out much different then I thought ( Read more... )

Written last night, posted today.As I stand there I stare. At the two paths before me. Both so unknown. One already promised. One waiting. Indecision, one of life's evil mistresses. Yet mistress as it may be is not one to hide. It probes its way through your every being. Providing you with an indescribable haywire sensation. "Indecision, why do u ( Read more... )