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ialdabaoth

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Mar 03, 2009 17:09

Wow, recurring nightmares suck. I have had the same damned nightmare almost every night for nearly a year, no matter what I do to "move on". I'm so fucking tired of not being able to let shit go. I need to just let shit go. What the fuck is wrong with me that I can't just let shit go? People who can't let shit go suck.

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ialdabaoth March 4 2009, 17:47:22 UTC

working on it. Or at least, I'm telling myself that I'm working on it. I have no idea whether I'm actually trying to cheer up, or whether I'm just trying to convince myself that I'm trying to cheer up. Hell, it's reasonably likely that my entire life has just been one big ploy for attention.

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ialdabaoth March 4 2009, 17:47:48 UTC

I thought that's what the pills were for.

Pills dont mend broken hearts. deadboy2 March 4 2009, 20:13:50 UTC

Time is your only friend. Understanding and rationalization is your only painkillers. Fill your life with fun and the time will fly by faster. If you find yourself dwelling too much, then turn the fun knob up another knotch.

Re: Pills dont mend broken hearts. ialdabaoth March 4 2009, 20:56:14 UTC

fun is difficult to come by when one is too obsessed to enjoy onesself.

Re: Pills dont mend broken hearts. deadboy2 March 4 2009, 22:06:19 UTC

Thats one reason why people to turn to cathartic masochism. It's hard to not obsess when someones beating your back. Your nerve endings have a very plesant way of overriding other thought processes. Plus you have the nice floaty subspace afterwards.

Re: Pills dont mend broken hearts. ialdabaoth March 8 2009, 03:10:00 UTC

weirdly enough, I have the opposite reaction. Physical sensation - especially unpleasant physical sensation - often makes me focus [i]more[/i] acutely on the things that I've been admonished for focussing on.

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bellafortold April 17 2009, 03:16:24 UTC

hmmmm....what's this about recurring nightmares? What happened? Just curious....and not helpful considering you are trying to "let shit go."
Been a while....thought I'd ask you how you are.

Melissa

ialdabaoth April 30 2009, 19:00:30 UTC

I've just been having recurring nightmares about my last break-up. It's annoying, in a "I don't like sleep deprivation" sort of way, but there really isn't more to it than that.