Crossroads of your life suck. Those little moments in which you have to choose a way to go that you cant turn back on. Today I realized that I am at a crossroads that I just dont want to come to. I just want to sit and think about it and I cant. I am being forced into doing something I dont want to do by my parents. And I dont want to let them down ( Read more... )

I just want to go home. Everything is falling apart and I just want to go home. I dont want much I just want to go back to the roads that turned to dirt and the fields that brought me joy. I just want to wake up tomorrow and it be a day before the wreck. I want to wake up tomorrow and be a rookie again. I want to wake up tomorrow and it's the day I ( Read more... )

Everyday his presence goes almost unnoticed to most. He is the object of ridicule and torment because he is misunderstood to most. I see him everyday in my gym class and I can't help but feel sorry for him. It must be so hard to be in his shoes. People have got to look down on him because they are too ignorant to see that he is autistic. I can't ( Read more... )

The bitter sweet feeling that can only come from having my parents hurt me finds its way into me as soon as I get home. I'm ready to run and not look back. I want to leave in the worst possible ways but I know that it would be a mistake, I know that it would never happen. Just two months and I won't ever have to see this town again. Two more months ( Read more... )

I sit on the train and people come shuffling by to grab a seat. I just sit and watch as the people make their way from work to try and get home. Van Dorn street passes by and I feel like sleeping some but I can wait because Arlington is just two stops away. All day in the city just waiting on the train to ride to Smithsonian so I can see it lit up ( Read more... )

God Bless New England! I've missed you so much that I can't even begin to say. I've missed the city. I've missed playing lacrosse up here. I don't want to go home......ever. Just let this be my home again, just let me have one more time in Mass. Let me sail out by the cape and catch the beautiful wind that will take me away to find peace on the ( Read more... )

The taste of lust between two strangers is a beautiful thing until you realize that your love only lasts for one night.

Well in a few hours I will be leaving for DC. My sister should give birth while I am up there. But other than that I will be back on the second of april and thats about it.

So again I get fucked over but its cool. I can't join the coast guard because the fucking army won't let me out. I would have to wait a period of a year before I could join and I am not sticking around this shithole for another year. But there is an advantage to this. I finally got the paperwork for my MOS change. I am getting the Special Forces ( Read more... )

In my dreams I still feel as if I am skiing. I still feel deep desires to use everything to get me by in every way I can't on my own. If only you could see that my story is as deep as my bones that most will never hear and there are the thoughts and memories that I will never reveal, you would understand so much. Between the lines I discovered that ( Read more... )