turn pressure into dynamics.

god damn i hate nostalgia. mostly because i live for it so.
andrea wortel i miss you and you don't seem to be talking (back) to me again, very frustrating.
this weekend is going to be rough, but i will live (and hopefully have a thesis when i get back to the states).
i love that i can read that chinese you posted kristin, no questions asked (go me).
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so here is where my trip takes one of two courses: the insanely happy, overly excited never coming back to america route or the pitiful, hateful, and homesick whimpering route.  i think that this will sound sound like one but really be neither.  i am not having the best time of my life here, but i expected that. it isn't horrible and i don't think ( Read more... )

so i am sick.  and everything kind of tastes like vodka.  needless to say, i am supremely unhappy. i ate street vendor food without thinking, and i believe that i am now paying for that choice. i have been in bed about a day and a half. i just feel like a mess. oh and more than that i have had the worst chest pain ever, what i would imagine a heart ( Read more... )

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I feel like I should say welcome to China.  But I won't.  About an hour ago I had this hugely sweeping feeling of nostalgia.  Not homesickness, not anything other than a desperate craving for high school and my life several years ago.  It has kind of passed, but I blame my iPod and boiled water for making me insane.  China has been interesting so ( Read more... )

its a little bit funny how easy it is to get lost and disconnect in this world. it is so funny to have a conversation with someone and know that they are not there.
i love it when i hear things like 'china is just like american, except they speak chinese.' mostly because i know that that is the case in the world. we are what we are. and as americans ( Read more... )

i took a really long quiz, but i cant get it to post now.. oh well.

i want to have one of those huge, soul pouring entries, but i can't manage that here.

one day, i will manage it, but again its not today.

can i be done with school? please? i'll even be a good boy. i promise.

i dunno what's up. gonna try to post the quiz again..

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so there is another lame ass song that relates to my life. at least in my head. one day i will sit down and write some of this out but for now i leave you with the bland, bittersweet (oh-so-common and overtly overdone) lyrics to my current theme:

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

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so there is one major epiphany in my life.
Remember when these two did it out on that mountain:

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