Ok it really scary but I'm back in school. Its not going to cost me anything so why not. I may even get paid to go to school because of grants and special programs I qualify for like displaced home maker because of Bruce's death. I am so excited and scared at the same time. (I'm scared to death of the math). I like the fact that I take 1 class ever ( Read more... )

Annabel, Jay and I are having a massive Fall party to either celebrate saving the house or selling it. Everyone come join us for our last big party. October 30th 5pm-? 2230 Moline Aurora. Bring something if you like (food, booze, a friend etc.)! Lots of Food, Fun, People, Drink, Music and a bonfire(we have to get rid of all this wood).

 Bruce and I talked about all the things we wanted to do when the kids grew up and had there own lives. We wanted to travel to see Bryce Canyon his favorite place on earth I've only seen pictures but I understand why. He wanted to see Mount Rushmore and look into the faces of the presidents he so respected. We must have driven with in 100 miles of ( Read more... )

The Last Decade

So much has happened over the last 10 years I'm not even sure how to sum it up. Some of the events and memories are were very good and some were very bad. As is most of my life it is full of extreme good and bad. These were just the highlights in no particular order.

The move to Manitou and the purchase of my dream house.
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Thanksgiving is a time to be thankful. It's hard to be thankful this year. The government says we are not in a depression. They didn't call the great depression a depression until years later. They say we haven't met certain criteria that makes this a depression instead of a recession ( Read more... )

We are off to the Happy Ass Ranch for a weekend away from the world. This will also allow us to bring back firewood and fresh vegetables. My cell doesn't work so leave a message I'll be back Monday.

http://www.happyassranch.com/firewood


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It's five days till my hand fasting. Its been interesting trying to walk this fine line between my old life and my new life. There have been a lot of adjustments. Like realizing I'm going to be poor the rest of my life. Realizing the person I'm with has no concepts of eating out at good restaurants nor does he care. He is happy eating bean and ( Read more... )

Why would any one want to marry someone they knew were dyeing? Why if you love someone would you want to let them?

Imagine trying to sleep and being in so much pain that tears make your pillow wet. Imagine trying to get up in the morning to go to the bathroom and having every joint in your body snap and feel like someone is breaking them in two. To sit anywhere is like having someone put a knife through your neck. To be in so much pain you want to die ( Read more... )

Recently in describing me in a one word answer my daughter said, “crazy”.  Maybe she was right. Maybe if she understood what I had lived through as a child she might understand.  Many people have said with what I went through its amazing I turned out as well as I did. It was a childhood that no child should have ever gone through. It is why I don’t ( Read more... )