Dun smoke so much! Don't die so early cause I still wanna see if our paths meet or not!!!! :)

So what if it hurts me? So what if I break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge run my feet off the ground? I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound. Don't care about other pain infront of me.
Just tryna be happy.

I was stupid enough to let you go.
And now... fuck this emotion roller coaster ride I am in.
I read the conversations and they hurt so bad.. I just want to go back..
I don't want it to hurt anymore :(

Of all the things I've believed in, I just want to get it over with.
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get cold..
Feels like I'm starting all over again.
I will put you behind and forget whatever that happened between us.
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew..

There were 12 people on court, 12 people playing.
But.. my eyes were on you the entire time.
You put up a really amazing good fight today..
I wish I could say this to you.
But.. I never will

Just needed someone to talk to.
Never felt this crappy my whole life.
I hope it's the last time.
My life is.. wrecked.
Nobody really fucking cares kaiting.
So just fuck off and die.
Yeah, I will.

At this point of life last year, I had you to encourage and push me on.. Not to give up.
But now.

Nope, things don't go the way you want to.
Things do not go as smoothly as you think it will be.
Now.. It's not in my hands.
In fate's.
Good luck to us? Yea. Probably.

Mmmh.
You said you didn't like tuna.. When I had tuna just now. It reminded me of you.
When will I ever see you again?
I die with every beat...
Why?

Where are you when.. I need someone to talk to?