Last night while i was asreep i felt this hand on my leg and heard Justin saying "hey babe, wake up." I opened my eyes and he was sitting up in the middle of the bed looking at me like he wanted to have a serious talk or something. I looked over at the clock and it was 3 something am. I looked at him and said, "what is it babe?" and he said "sit up ( Read more... )

why do i think about such weird things? when i flew to cali, i walked down the aisle of the plane to my seat picking out and making mental notes of the people in their seats who I THOUGHT could easily have characatures drawn of them. i think its fascinating that when i am at some location like the airport, the grocery store or any other public ( Read more... )

So justin and i moved in together.......things couldnt be better. this is the feeling that i have been waiting for since i can remember. i now know what it feels like and at the same time means to be held. he tells me"we are nothing without the other." i never thought i'd hear or feel someone care about me like that. no, theres nothing wrong with ( Read more... )

whoa. long time no post eh? theres a lot to tell!!! first and foremost, i now have someone who makes me happier than i have ever been. hes everything that ive hoped and prayed for and completely amazing and thats basically all that i can say. we are perfect in every way. <3 ( Read more... )

this is how it works ( Read more... )

if i lay here....if i just lay here. would you lay with me and just forget the world? ..........

so my new job is going pretty sweet-o. its a grown up job. about freaking time i got one of those again. its really stressful scheduling all those crainiotomys and other neurological surgeries. working at TRH will help with my nerves on that end and also hook me up with extra cash-ola ( Read more... )

i am fucking fed up with so much shit right now. fed right the fuck up. everyone can kiss my ass. yes, you too ( Read more... )

just breathe, cole..........breathe.

well, here i am back in cali. atleast for a bit. the smells, the sights, the people - all make me remember and miss what i once had. i dunno what to say about that, except that if i hadnt given it all up for a certain person (whom i used to see as a mistake but now see as a blessing) i wouldnt have met the great people i know now. i wouldnt have a ( Read more... )